I'm having a total pity party for myself right now. Granted, I'm the only guest, and it's not very pretty.
My mother just got wonderful highlights and a great hair cut. $150 worth of great. I'm feeling rather fumpy (frump-a-dump) right now. I've been working out and watching what I'm eating - making better decisions, and I'm seeing some small improvements in weight/shape/attitude.
My mom offered to pay for me to get the a cut/color with the stylist. I need some "sprucing" up in her words, not mine. I guess my low self esteem has just been shot down.
I've mentioned how the budget has been tightened due to lack of rental property income. In the best case scenario, if all goes well, I'm hoping for a new tenant by 9/1. On top of it, the medical bills from last month keep rolling in. The hospital will rebill me for $500 (much better than the original $2,500). The doctor just billed me $120 and a pathology bill for $20 was in the mail today. I'm happy that I'm able to keep my chin up and not be completely bogged down.
I've got a $28 credit at Kohl's, but I don't think any clothes for myself will help me out of my rut. My oldest needs new shoes and I'm making the wisest money decisions.
I was around a bunch of upper middle-class women yesterdya in great clothes from Nordstrom's and Macy's. Cute Coach purchases in all different colors. I could go on and on and on.
I am grateful that my children are healthy and happy (less the one tired one who was up all night last night at a slumber party and is a bit on the cranky side). I am glad that we were able to go to the Y today and be together - the girls and I worked out and boys were swimming. No money spent. Tomorrow is Church and a family picnic for the Knights of Columbus, another no-spend day.
I know that there is more to life than outer beauty, and I'm not exactly forced to live naked in the elements somewhere. BUT, I'm still suffering from the want-wants.
And taking money from my mother to have this done is NOT an option, thought tempting.
Encouragement, please?
June 26th, 2010 at 11:13 pm
June 26th, 2010 at 11:22 pm 1277590956
Many of those women put those outfits on credit and don't think at all about the payment and ramifications. You are a beautiful human being. May I suggest, a few moments alone today to pray/meditate on all the gifts you do have.
I hope that you find a tenant sooner than you think.
June 26th, 2010 at 11:38 pm 1277591880
June 27th, 2010 at 01:27 am 1277598466
I was just thinking today that others must think I am so boring, because I never particularly change my look. I suppose I don't care. BUT, I went in for a haircut today ($9.99, mind you) and I look like a different person. Just to point out that you can spruce yourself up without breaking the bank. (I was also thinking thrift shop if a new outfit would help).
June 27th, 2010 at 01:29 am 1277598585
June 27th, 2010 at 04:34 am 1277609691
A good antidote is an element of gratitude. (and you have a lot to be thankful for!) Church should help - last I checked, Nordstrom, Macy's, and Coach hadn't made it into any standard religious texts. . Exercise helps too, and if you can, try some outside exercise - walking, tai chi in the park, jogging. Some sunlight and some vitamin D is a great mood elevator.
June 27th, 2010 at 04:54 am 1277610873
The things that I do when I'm having a fat/sluggish day are: take the dogs for a walk, do some yoga and have a nice relaxing bath. if I have more time, I'll soak my feet while I watch a bit of tv or read a book and give myself a mini-pedicure. it might take two hours out of my day, but it's usually a once a month thing which makes me feel like I'm taking some well deserved time out for myself (and it's free).
there are some other great suggestions on here too. i hope that you do atleast a little something for yourself and hope that you feel a bit better. *hugs*
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