I have spent 75% of the past month rather grief-stricken, holed up laying on my bed watching TV (nothing good, might I add - lots of junky TV and Judge Judy). I've learned to trust good friends to take my younger boys while I've been "recovering". I will admit to lots of crying and bantering with God, but nothing can change the way things have turned out.
But I can change my attitude. It has been one week since I made up my mind to "be better and do better".
Today I suggested a family outing to the Y - the place I never go, the place DH works out several mornings a month, the place I drop the kids off for some classes. While we pay monthly, this is a "free" and simple place to go. The boys swam with Dad, while the girls worked out. I am considering myself a girl - I walked 1.01 mile in 17 minutes - sad, but it is a start.
I realize this is a great way to do things and be active as a family. I told the kids I'd take them to Open Swim on Monday afternoon. I am not thrilled to be in a swimsuit (haven't been in one since last summer at the ocean). While my weight is OK, low 130s - I am FAR FROM FIT. I was quite honest with my girls about not feeling too wonderful about how I look in my suit. The old me never would have done that - discuss my insecurities. My one daughter is quite loyal and declared I ALWAYS look good (rather in a gushy way) while my older daughter who is a pragmatist suggested I get a suit with a skirt. Got to love it - and in having better discussions, my oldest daughter actually read me some of her text messages while I was driving her to her friend's house. It was almost like she was sharing her diary.
This is the one life I've got. I will get in the pool, fat thighs and all! Need to conquer comparing myself to others.
The Challenge: Just do it
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I HIGHLY recommend it. I don't have body image issues, but I was watching that show last night thinking, "Damn, I am skinny." LOL. The whole point of the show is to show some body conscious "victim" that their body image issues are in their head. They try to get them so comfortable with their body that they pose naked at the end of the show. It's just kind of funny, but it is really good. (Just funny - I was watching it last night so popped into my head when I read this).
Watch that show and hop in that pool!!!
June 14th, 2010 at 12:45 am 1276472732